how did I change my attitude toward my father?My father was an old revolutionary,he used to spend his whole life on in-fightingduring the cultural revolution.He didn't know what the love is and didn't know howto express the love toward his sons and d

how did I change my attitude toward my father?My father was an old revolutionary,he used to spend his whole life on in-fightingduring the cultural revolution.He didn't know what the love is and didn't know howto express the love toward his sons and d
how did I change my attitude toward my father?
My father was an old revolutionary,he used to spend his whole life on in-fighting
during the cultural revolution.He didn't know what the love is and didn't know how
to express the love toward his sons and daughters.I just remembered the din of
quarrels and curses when I began to know things.He treated me like dirt and
deserted me when I most need his help.To such kind of person,I despise him
from the heart.Now he was old,he want me to take care of him.Pie!I want to
throw up when I recall the past how he treated me.
The something forced me to change my mind-set.that is the heritage he will
leave to our three forebearings.In order to get the bigger share of legacy,
I should change my strategy.Now he was in the hospital,I have to pretend to
frequent his place as more as possible.I have to flatter him,ask him about
what he needs,then I will search around the whole city to get what he wants.
I even began to learn how to massage,wash his body.So disgusting!I am
looking forward to his death as soon as possible to end my service.what the hell
of hypercricy!
It seems as though I work as actor who plays two characters.One is a cool,aloof
and real myself who still despises and hate him in the innermost heart.This role
is easily played because it is real me.The past memory cannot be erased from my
mind.The other role is a submissive,happy-go-lucky and carefree man who holds
tears and bite the bullets to force smile to make his father feel happy.I dislike it
because it's against my willing and my nature.But the cruel reality nowadays has
taught me the lesson that you can not survive if you haven't learn how to flatter
someone important.I believe that you sow some kind of seed,you will gain some
kind of seed.you sow nothing,you will get nothing.Why should he get what doesn't
not belong to him.He doesn't deserve being treated like that.on the one hand,I
hate myself,for I have not ability to get rich,on the other hand,I have to grasp the
the chance.What's your advice

how did I change my attitude toward my father?My father was an old revolutionary,he used to spend his whole life on in-fightingduring the cultural revolution.He didn't know what the love is and didn't know howto express the love toward his sons and d
我的父亲是一位老革命家.文化大革命期间,他把所有的时间都花在了批斗中.他不知道爱是什么也不知道怎么对他的子女表示爱.当我才刚开始懂事的时候,我只记得吵架和诅咒的嘈杂声.在我非常需要他的帮助的时候,他却把我当废物,弃之不理.对于这样的人,我打从心里就讨厌他.现在他老了,想要我好好照顾他.呸!当我想起他过去如何对我时,我就想呕吐.